Dear Future, "I've a Favor"

Dear Future,

I've a favor to ask of you.

First, I'll need to clarify some pronouns.
The following contents prefer to be identified as "favor"
This favor will also sometimes go by "letter"
for survival,

but never "prayer".

It can be a vulnerable feeling.
received as a "prayer" without asking God to watch me
constricted into his warmth like
I don't get to ask who's love I bath in.

and I was curious.

What are your pronouns?
Do you go by God

or Future

or Legacy?

I don't want to be disrespectful.
I already feel like a burden,

I know you would take me in anyway.


I tried to think about your origins

If they had anything to do with 
time or if "we"
made that shit up

ask what the fuck  "dark matter" is, 
or 
if we made that shit up 
too.

I wanted to know where you 
became... 
I wanted to know if I get dementia,
obliterated in a nuclear light
or watch the sun turn off;
in a race between all three 
what burns out first?

Do I get a vote?


I'd rather be forgotten, and remember...

than be remembered, and forget....

by Nicholas M. Coulombe
Portland, ME